Hi subscribers and blog followers! It’s been ages, so I don’t know who is still out here with me. But the update is this: I’m releasing a new album this year. I haven’t released music in 7 years, and I am simply thrilled to be able to bring to you, in sound, who I am now. So much has changed, of course, since you last heard music from me: I have left the church and reconstructed an entirely different worldview, I’m out as a lesbian and living in my wholeness, and I’ve got stories to tell.
With this third and upcoming album—the title of which is yet to be announced—I am breaking into the sapphic pop genre. I’m leaving my twenties and every last shred of heterosexuality firmly behind with a new, mature sound, standout vocals, and a message that producer of the project Chase Coy calls “very powerful.” This new album is for the post-evangelical queers who have a bittersweet relationship with all that they had to leave behind, anyone who knows the delicious pain of a lesbian situationship, and all who are in therapy for disorganized attachment issues, but for me this project is a letter to a complicated, closeted love and a letting go of a woman I never really had.
Now if you’ve been following me in this space for any amount of time, you likely already know parts of the story I’m referencing. But with this album I will be speaking through the lens of someone who has made peace with the ghosts of her past, been to a lot of therapy, and finally has the hands to hold the complicated truths that come with living under oppressive systems, being indoctrinated from a young age, and understanding how that affects our relationships with one another, knowing that it’s both possible and sometimes even lovely to miss someone who brought you pain. I hope you will give me the grace to retell this story in a way that’s much more true to who I am now.
If you subscribed here to get updated about my writing, you should know that I’ve recently revised the writing section of my website. There’s a lot of new pieces published there that I’ve been working on since 2020. Before starting work on this album, creative writing was my main outlet for the last three years, so I hope to bring you more of that going forward. I have a lot of writing that I’ve been sitting on pretty selfishly for a while that I’m nearly ready to let see the light of your screens.
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